Monday Monday

Ok well as you all will notice it nearly 15 minutes till 8 and yes I'm still at work! I'm about to leave though, I just thought I'd blog before I packed up. The day started off on a slow start being as I was about 30 minutes late for work this morning!!!! I had 3 different alarms set and never heard one of them. Dad's morning phone call at 5 till 7 finally woke me up!! I'm not sure what was wrong with me, I even went to bed early and everything! Oh yeah it could have something to do with the fact that I had little to no sleep on saturday night!!! Between the dog, Chad's late night clicking on the computer and then the children up and going about 6:30 not much sleeping going on!!! And yes I know Jen...you never get sleep!!! But you should be used to it by now!! Ha Ha!!! Anyway, back to Monday! After actually getting to work, the day hasn't been so bad, just long I guess!! I have worked on one thing all day long, and finally got finished about 10 minutes ago!!! Woo Hoo!!! Ok well as much as everyone would love for me to continue my babbling about my ever so glamorous life...I must be going!!! Goodnight All!!!!

Ok well I thought i'd let everyone rest for a few days before I got started again!!! First of all, I read all the comments and I was a little shocked, much nicer than I expected!!!!! Like Jen said I'm just 23 and I have plenty of time, I understand that but at the same I just feel like i'm moving at turtle speed on this and at this rate I will be 43 before I get a life! Sounds silly?...maybe but you know you go through life with a generalized plan of growing up, get a job, get a life. Well it seems as though the first two pieces of the puzzle have come together quite smoothly but then it's like I just hit a wall! I know this all must seem very petty to everyone considering you all have your life established and settled in it. Which in turn makes me feel like a little school girl when I complain. But oh well, it should make my point even stronger....I'M THE ONLY ONE ALONE!!!. I'm the only one left in the group and oh my God what if it stays that way, am i always gonna be the one sitting at the table that says "no mine is separate"???? Ok well enough of that for now, but don't worry it's not a subject that I forsee going away anytime soon!!!! Anyway, I'm at Jen's tonight. Mom and I watched the kids while she and Chad went to the Tim and Faith concert!!! I'm starting to get a little sleepy but it's looking like I'm gonna have to stay up until they get home because I have no where to sleep...other than the couch of course!!! Everyone else is in bed, even the dog has fallen asleep!!! The dog by the way seems to like me for some reason. Jen says that's what I need...a dog!!! And ya know she just may be right! Back on track now...I went to sonic tonight and left mom here with the kiddies and while I was gone mom called and told me that the dog had been going nuts since I left, the sad part is that the dog is probably the first thing to ever miss me!!!!!!! Ha Ha!!!! Anyway, we took Hannah school shopping today, can't believe she starting school, she's growing up too fast! She will by far be the coolest kid on the block!!!! And Jackson, well I'm afraid that he may rule the house before long, because if he doesn't slow down he's gonna weigh more than his mom or dad!!! But he sure is cute!!!! Ok well I guess i've rambled on enough for one sitting!!! I may have to just hit the couch, don't think I can make till Jen gets home!!! Goodnight all!!!!!!

I'M BACK!!!!! YOU ASKED FOR IT!!!!!!

Well Jen and Stacey have both commented on the fact that I haven't blogged in while. And I'm not really sure why my sister is so concerned, I know she's not that interested in what's going on in my life or she would call a little more often!!! Anyway, I'm just finishing up some things at work so I thought while no one was here to interrupt I try this thing again. Once again I'm gonna try my best to get my computer set up at home next week, and then look out!!! Instead of wondering where I am, you guys will be telling me to shut up!!! No seriously, just really haven't felt like blogging, had a lot to say, but there's just something about writing or typing things...it suddenly becomes so real! And well I don't necessarily like to live in the "real world" I prefer "kayla's land" but for some reason, I'm the only one that lives in that town, cause no one ever seems to see things my way!!! Imagine that!!! Anyway, believe it or not, I've been a little down lately...no no it's true...as shocking as that may be...Kayla has been depressed!!!!! As Jamie has said "thinking can get you in trouble" and that is so true for me!!!! I'm 23 years old and honestly I think most of my problem is that I spend ENTIRELY too much time alone!!! I mean, I go to work, then come home...ALONE. That's pretty much the story of my life!!!! And at 23 I just don't think that's very healthy, and I know it's not for someone of my mentality!! And i'm pretty sure everyone will agree with me on that!!! I'm not complaining about my life really, cause i've got a pretty good one. Good job, good home, good family!!! Outside of those things is where I run into problems. Living in Jamestown, kinda has a lot to do with it because any of the friends that I had that still live here are all married with children, or on drugs!!! And well No Thanks!! And sure I can go to cookeville or murfreesboro every weekend but if I plan on making my life in Jamestown, it just seems as though I should kinda learn to live here! I just feel like running away from the problem isn't gonna solve it!!! This brings me to a really big question...."SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO NOW" (I always did like that song). And if I go...where do i go???? It's kinda sad cause as much as I was against the whole living in Jamestown thing.....really it's not that bad. But right now i'm 23 living across the driveway from my parents(don't get me wrong that's not all that bad, cause believe it or not they never bother me) and do i want to do that for the rest of my life!!! I think everyone knows that I have this horrible fear of ending up like (well I should say their name, but i'm thinking y'all know). Anyway that's my worst nightmare!!! Oh and another thing, I think i'm gonna change my name, because i have come to the conclusion that the name "kayla" means "second" in the language of the male species. So i've got to come up with something that means "first"!!! For once in my life I wanna be "the woman" and not "the other woman"(I can only imagine the comments i'm gonna get on this one) I'm just tired of being alone all the time!!! I think everyone will agree that i have come leaps and bounds from where I once was, but it's time to move on again!!! I'm just not sure in what direction!!!! Well i'm gonna close up shop here for the night!!!!! Everyone be nice!!!!!! BYE BYE!!!!

Manic Monday!!!!!!!!

Ok well Jamie has hounded me until I've finally gotten a chance to get this thing back up! Took me forever cause I didn't know my username or password! Anyway, I'm back!!!! Hopefully once I get my computer up and running at home I'll be able to blog more right now I'm still at work!!! Well it was back to work Monday and boy was it hectic. Just when i feel like i'm starting to make a dent in the papers on my desk someone comes through and throws another stack down!!!! I've threaten to cut fingers off if one more person lays one more thing on my desk!!!! Anyway, shouldn't complain too much at least I have a job! And it pays my bills!!! Ok well that's all for now!! It's quitting time and i've got to get out of this chair cause my butt is killing me!!!! Jamie I hope your happy now!!!!!!!!!